God makes beauty from ashes

Hi Jonathan, How are you? Im writing to you on my blog because whenever we have spoken over the last year and a half, we are both too full of emotion to think clearly and calmly. Im also writing to you on here because I can say -without any 'editing' or fear of saying the wrong thing - what I REALLY want to; because you'll actually never read this. Oh Jonno...we've gone from crying torrents of tears at the very beginning of this divorce...to shouting abuse and saying things we would have been SHOCKED to even think about years ago...to just sighing in defeat, to fighting more, to trying to go on in ignorance...to your email last week that was simply titled "Hi Little Miss". A new beginning. I read it a thousand times and wrote my reply very carefully. I kept it short, you know. A lot like the first email I ever sent to you. I was in Uni in Australia - a nervous 23 year old girl not knowing what the hell her life was going to be like...I saw your profil...

that's who I hope to be one day. Someone like Irene. I remember the first time I met Irene. She was in the Church kitchen and came out wiping her hands on an apron. She smiled at me and made me feel welcome right away. Irene and Becky Buchnor were the 2 names I remembered from meeting so many people at Church that day. Everyone was lovely and so friendly but Irene and Bec touched my heart especially. Irene had a way of making everyone and anyone feel like they were welcome and cared for. I remember Irene would always make me a card and write something uplifting and encouraging. I always got post from Irene when I moved back to Oz the first few times and whenever it was my birthday, a card and gift from Irene were always the first things I opened. Irene touched so many people's lives and poured herself out so selflessly for everyone around her. The world will be at a huge loss and Heaven will be partying. Im too upset to write anything else xx