"Purging" my heart and all my fears last night wasnt as healthy and empowering as I thought it would be. I actually couldnt sleep thinking "oh my God...people I love and think dearly of have read my fears, my demands upon myself and my b*tchy rantings and ravings. But it's out there now, isn't it? (*whispers* I might still delete yesterday's post...I'll file it mentally under "too much information") Again, I had another good day. I worked for 4 hours as the Government "tea lady" this morning. Although it has it's cons (I basically circle 3 kitchens on 2 different floor levels and just do the dishes every time someone has left them as well as re-fill coffee, tea and hot chocolate canisters on every visit which is lonely and sometimes awkward), it has it's pros - I get to greet some really happy/nice staff members, Donna - my manager in this placement - is really lovely and leaves me home made cookies on the mornings when...
Father God, Thank you. Thank you for every blessing in my life. Please help me to see the small blessings and to always hope for the big ones. My life is in your hands. Amen xx