Alun has been gaslighting me all year and I've had enough. He will ask me to do something/order him something/plan something and when I do it, he loses his damn mind and will shout and have a huge fit over it "Why did you do/say/organise that? I DON'T WANT IT" and yell at me for ages, working the word "dickhead" in repeatedly. Last night, Alun SWORE BLIND he wanted a Big Mac meal. "I'm so hungry, Janet" I watch him carefully because I love him and I know he'd not eaten all day so to hear him say he wanted to FINALLY EAT something brought me so much joy. "Are you sure?" I asked as I brought up the MenuLog ap. Alun nodded and pointed to the McDonald's logo on the screen. He jumped around excitedly on the sofa "Big Mac meal, please! I want it! Big Mac, yeah yeah yeah" I laughed seeing him so happy. I pressed "order" and put in my bank details (I'll treat you, my love) and turned back to the show I was wat...
Father God, Thank you. Thank you for every blessing in my life. Please help me to see the small blessings and to always hope for the big ones. My life is in your hands. Amen xx