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10 days

 that's how long it took for my friend...let's call him "Adrian"...to open a letter from me.

Adrian's had a rough time of late with 2 of his closest friends dying within months of each other. I wanted to send him some support and encouragement in the post so I picked a card with a load of cartoon acorns on the front. The card read "If I had an acorn for every time I thought of you, other people would say I had too many acorns!" then inside, the card said "And they'd be wrong!"

It was so cute, even in the store as I read it, I knew I loved it and wanted to buy it for someone.

I wrote about how I'd be there for Adrian any time he needed to talk and that he was loved and not alone. I posted it off with a happy smile and hoped it would bless him.

I think it took about a week for the card to reach Adrian...but I didn't hear anything back from him for almost 3 weeks all up...because he was scared to open his card.

Adrian's anxiety had told him it was a card saying I knew he was a fraud (?) and that I didn't like him and didn't want to be his friend anymore.

Firstly...what SICKO is so disturbed that they pay to post something personally to someone's home that hurts them?

Secondly, my heart just broke for Adrian because I know what that anxiety is like and it can convince you beyond any shadow of a doubt that no one likes you and that anything that looks like a gift could well be a trap.

If you get anything from me in the post, I promise it's full of love and warm wishes. You're okay to open it xx

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