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2 weeks post op

Hey hey everyone :)

And by everyone, I mean hello Becci, Claudie and maybe Marc :) hahahaha omg I am so glad for you guys - at least someone is reading along with me, eh? You guys brighten my world and remind me I'm not alone.

On that note, if you are reading my blog and I don't know it (i.e. - you're not one of the 3 who contact me every now and then and say "I just read your blog!" haha - please let me know so I can talk to you and hear more from you, ok?)

It's 2 weeks after the operation and I think of my life in terms of "BEFORE" and "AFTER" I had a womb. I don't know what else is missing, really. The Surgeon "Dr Penis" (don't ask) asked me the day after surgery "do you have any questions" but I was so drugged up on pain medications I could only shake my head and smile "no thanks, I'm all good"

Now I DO have questions:

What did you take out?
How big was the massive fibroid that started all this trouble?
Were there other fibroids? How big were they?
Do I still have my cervix? What IS a cervix? Do I need it? For...um...sex?...right?

There is lots of information on the internet about hysterectomies but not that much about what recovery actually looks like.

For me, it looks like this:

A lot of fatigue. I get tired very easily.
Gas pain is the WORST and feels like someone is trying to tear my stomach, bowels and intestines out.
I take the occasional pandadol (very mild pain killer) but for the most part, I don't have a lot of pain.
There is a lot of time to think. Possibly too much.
I really like having time to sleep and being ALLOWED to rest as much as I want to.
I love being encouraged to "do nothing" by everyone I love. THIS. IS. AWESOME you guys.

I think because I don't feel a lot of pain, I'm pushing myself FAR TOO HARD and FAR TOO FAST.

I'm doing a lot of house work, for instance and a lot of moving about. A lot of little walks. I guess in theory that's the best thing to do - I don't know if I was meant to be laying in bed all day and I can't imagine that being a good thing over a number of weeks - but I'm fairly sure I've gone too far the other way and I'm doing too much. Alun changed my bandaging the other day and said he can see that the fine line the Surgeon cut along my stomach doesn't look as neat anymore - it looks jagged and pretty gross - because I've been unknowingly pulling at it.

Oh no.

I don't want a horrible jagged scar on my tummy :( I don't want to ruin things. I don't want to be pulling on stitches and not resting as I should.

This is hard, you guys.

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