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and just like that...im smiling :)

Hey!

It will have to be a short blog today because im KNACKERED. I went to work early this morning and couldnt BELIEVE how overcast and muggy it was today. Yuck. Still, its a welcome change from the searing sunlight so I enjoyed it, really. Work was MAD busy...everytime a phonecall almost finished, 3 other calls came in. I felt like I blinked and it was time to pack up, hand over to the lovely Sue...and leave.

So I ran for the bus and was 10 minutes late to my Psych appointment. I had this eerie, horrible feeling that this was going to be my last one...that PC had finally had enough of me over these months and that he'd say "sorry...you're on your own...weirdo!"

and I told him as much. P said "What made you think that?" and I wanted to say "Because everytime I come in here, its not long before your head is in your hands and you look like a balloon I've just popped" but I shrugged instead. We talked on and off about the crazy workings of my mind and P did say that I only had 6 sessions left with him. At least I know in advance that I have 6 weeks to get my life together. 6 weeks to put my world at rights. P said I was being "unrealistic" but I like to think of it more as "hopeful" :)

Then I had to race to Centrelink...and that's where my day completely turned around...

...I was at Centrelink in the same line for what seemed like YEARS and I thought "Im going to grow old and DIE here, aren't I?" and I started looking around for an escape when someone finally took my form and agreed to pay me. YAY! I love Centrelink! Even if they gave me $10 a week...its more than I had before so Im dead grateful for every penny. Praise God!

So yeah...I ran to the bus shelter...in this horrible rain and lightning and hail storms...and huddled against the wall thinking "why didnt I bring the umbrella Mom offered to me this morning?" and I looked down and this guy was sat on the seat next to me. He looked up and smiled and said "Gday" and I smiled back. He kept looking so I filled the silence with "crap weather, eh?" He chuckled and said "yeah...its not the best".

We chatted and I learnt he was from NSW and had moved to Perth to find work...hence we were both at Centrelink. We ended up sitting together on the bus and talking on our way into Perth. This guy (I hadnt asked his name) said he was a bit lost and didnt know how to get back to his backpackers Hotel. I asked which street it was on, he said "Wellington"...which is the same street I live on so I said I'd walk him.

We walked and chatted and found reasons to laugh even though we were both getting soaked. I walked him to the backpacker's lodge and turned to leave when he called out to me and made waved an imaginary phone at me "Hey, since you only work 3 days a week, wanna hang out with me on the days you're free?" I turned back to him and said "that sounds like fun!" so we exchanged numbers and I walked home smiling. I've never had a guy ask for my number before - so exciting!

The rain didnt seem as bad anymore.

And I have a new friend called Blake to go to the zoo with this week.

IF he calls.

I'll let you know :) Im too tired to write anything else.

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